This may be a long-ish post. It’s been a while since I blogged all about myself (blush)
And I guess that there are good reasons for it. One being that I have two kiddos and they’re much more fun to bloggy blog about… and two being- well, I probably didn’t want to bring much attention to myself in a way. But it’s about time that I share my story with you and tell you where I’ve been and where I’m going.
I should probably start way way back..
Awww! Look at me then…. bowl haircut and all..
I’m the oldest child in my family of 3 kids and the only girl. I have an amazing family. I love each of them dearly and wouldn’t trade them for anything in this world.
I was a happy kid, always active and loved being outside. I played sports as a little girl and also learned the art of polynesian dance… see me showing off my belly already?
My parents never denied my brothers or I any opportunity and we got to experience so much. I loved learning new things and mom and dad always supported me.
I was a normal weight all the way through middle school and into the 9th grade where something happened (I discovered cake for breakfast?) and I began to gain weight steadily. I had some really amazing friends (hi girls!!) who would eat any and everything in sight and never gain an ounce (so it seemed) and then there was me.
No one ever directly talked to me about being “chubby” or overweight. My parents would tell me I was beautiful and my friends would say the same.
I think i always half believed them.
Fortunately for me, being chubby didn’t ever really hinder me from doing things. I was ALL ABOUT high school. I was in ASB, I swam on the JV swim team and I even sang in show choir… yep.
So I wasn’t a introverted closet eater. I didn’t ever cry myself to sleep at night about my weight. It was just there- and I think I just lived with it.
One things I DO always remember was people saying was “you have such a pretty face”
I guess it’s a good thing I didn’t really take this to heart too much- like, the rest of me wasn’t pretty- just my face?
When I turned 16, I met a very handsome guy… 🙂 Who later (5 years later) became my handsome husband. I recently asked Mark if when we started dating he noticed my “chubbiness” and if he was at all bothered by it, he was, afterall an avid cross country runner with a 8-pack of abs..:)
And you know what he said?
“I never noticed it, you were so ultra confident that it never showed or seemed to bother you”..
Well, I guess that’s where I have a leg up on girls that are challenged by weight. I knew that my body wasn’t functioning at it’s ideal weight, but I carried on anyway and lived life.
(this is me in 2001)
FAST FORWARD a little bit…
Right after graduating high school I put myself through Cosmetology school. sixteen-hundred HOURS of practical and written work so I could get my license to cut/style/curl/color and whatever else you can think of! I hated the process of going to beauty school and was determined to finish it asap.
Luckily, I had some really amazing friends who I were with me on my journey. (hi girls). But once again, I was not the picture of perfect health, often times- skipping meals ALL day long only to get home at 9 at night, starving and eating everything in sight. Not ideal. I finished school and started working in a popular salon right away and loved it. After a few years at that particluar salo, I realized that I wanted to exercise my new license and learn more about aesthetics and skin care, I ended up becoming a skin care specialist for a very exclusive destination spa here in Souther CA.
tiny fast forward…
Mark and I got married in 2004. Wedded BLISS I tell you! Mark is my biggest fan! We enjoyed the newlywed life and while I vowed to learn how to cook and clean and do everything a good wife should do, I also enjoyed being take out to dinner…oops.
Mark and I would eat out 5+ times a week, not always fast food, we would try to be healthy (sometimes) and I gained weight. Some people gain the freshman 15… Mine was like the Newly Wed 20.
Two years later, we had our first daughter. Isn’t she sweet? Here on the blog were going to call her Ms S.
She is so sweet. And has brought so much love and joy to our hearts. (she’s now 5 years old)
But being overweight and pregnant on top of that was really hard. REALLY hard. I was in constant pain and definitely uncomfortable. I went 2 weeks and 6 days overdue with Ms S. Yes. I could have killed someone. 🙂 I was borderline high risk and very close to developing gestational diabetes.
I was scared.
So when she was born, I took really really good care of my body. I loved her so much and wanted to be a good mother to my new baby, so I ate very healthy and did everything I could to help her grow.
I struggled with weight again after Ms S was born because I wasn’t used to having a “mom” body. Things change a lot when you have a baby. And I was still not happy with myself. But I was a busy mama. I decided to be a stay at home mom and I started my own photography business. I love photography. So I kepy myself really busy and never really thought much about my health. would eat dinner sometime VERY late at nihgt after baby went to sleep. Mark was studying late into the nights and I would stay up with him, eating all the way up until the time I’d go to bed.
Nothing like going to be with 2 or 3 slices of pizza in you- right?
When Ms S. was about 18months old, Mark started running again, not just “running” but training for not one, but 2 marathons. WHOO HOO! I was SO proud of him! And also very envious of his rapid weight loss. He looked amazing. I felt yuck! and then guess what?
We found out that baby #2 was on the way!
I love how sometimes when you think you’re in control, you get little reminders that you’re definitely NOT.
So 9 months later Little Baby F joined the Baddas party! We couldn’t be more excited. Ms S was a big sister and we were the parents of CHILDREN! lol!
Life continues to be sweet. Lots of things happen, like, Mark graduates from UCSD and we moved closer to our home town to be near both of our families. And I continue to enjoy my girls and my family. Food is comfort. We’re Filipino… do you know what the FIRST thing a filipino mother asks you when you visit them?
“did you eat?” “are you hungry?” “can I make you something?”
I said yes to it all .
Fast forward again to this January (2012) I decide this is MY year. I decided that no matter what, I was going to get into shape and FINALLY be happy about myself.
I started cutting calories. Like in half.
I started walking on a tredmill. It felt like my legs were made out of lead. I felt so heavy and so slow. But I did it.
4-5 days a week I walked/jogged for 20-30 minutes, that was my limit. And in 3 months I lost about 10 pounds! I was excited because it was working!! I was losing weight. All the while this was happening, Mark and I started our own business and that was keeping us very busy. Mark was out of town for most of January, and so the girls and I were on our own! We made it BTW. 🙂
And then through Nu Skin (our new adventure) I found the R90 program. And I thought to myself, I need to do this. I just need to do it.
It took a lot of courage, because I was so unsure of myself, but I did it and guess what?
This girl dropped 11 MORE pounds in 30 days. WHAT?? I was over the MOON excited! I decide that my life will never be the same again. R90 has changed the way I think about my health.
I’ve decided that I AM WORTH THE WORK. I am!
This weight management system has totally changed me as a woman. It makes me feel amazing- and I know that if I can do it, anyone who’s willing to put in the work will be able to do it as well.
And that’s ME.
Thanks for taking the time to read. I am truly an open book, so if you have any questions about my weight loss journey with the R90 program, please ask away!! You can email me any time: firstname.lastname@example.org